The Parable of the Lost Pin Button

Yesterday, in my joy of the IT workshop I had attended last Sunday, I put the company's pin button in my bag. Still in the house I come to think that it could lost because it's pin is not yet that gripping in the bag, I had thought to fastened it harder by means of sewing it. But I just left 'cause I have no lots of time left and I'll be late. I'm proud to show the world that I've been in that training. In addition, I saw again one of the teacher I dislike or no care for. He probably saw the pin. Hehe. 'Cause he's at my back and rushed ahead of me through the train station. I never mind greeting him.

In the jeepney, while we're on our way home, I stare upon the pin. It's beautiful. I'm proud I have it. We're on the bus ride and before I get off, something was fell from me I think but I'm not sure it was from me. I'm in the state of insanity that time 'cause I'm dizzy and tired, and I'm talking with my friends. She's the first one who noticed something's fell. I had looked at my bag, but I saw nothing is wrong so I just quickly decided to get off the bus or I'll passed by my ride to home.

Then while I'm walking and up to the bus, I know something's missing. And yes, I therefore realized, my pinbutton was missing. It was the 'thing' that fell. I quickly texted my friend to try to search for it if she is still there. But she replied and said, she just got off. And a follow up message of, "sana pala hinanap ko.."

I just said that it's okay eventhough I'm very sad. It's my significant remembrance. What could be my sourgrape would be, I could get there again, in that training. And maybe it really will happen. I realized that it was my last glare at that pin button. I want to get off the bus and search for it, but could I see the bus again?

I have so many realizations about the lost pin button.

First, there should be many chances again that I could acquire another like that. I have at home UPITTC and MSDN pin but I guess I couldn't get to that seminar again. Unlike this training, I could get there in the future, whenever I want. I just need money.

Second, in midst of "insanity" or "out-of-mind" state, I couldn't just lay my trust even in my closest friend to initiate looking for something that is missing from me.

Third, my Father wants me to get there again for my needed trainings to secure my goals. How should I get there without more money is it only Father who knows.

Fourth, the pin signifies a great friend. I have old friends (the UPITTC and MSDN pin) and I kept them in my heart. I found new great friend and I risk to display it because I'm proud of it. I had thought I could lost it but I didn't make ways to prevent losing it. I just leave it in "whatever will be.". Just like now that I feel I could lose someone, so I should do something about it in earlier times. But if really I can't prevent losing it, just like what happen yesterday because I'm a little bit insane, then it was about time. And Father said, I could find another and better than that one.

Fifth, I therefore realize that it was just a reminder to me that I should be writing inspirational thoughts in this blog even in the midst of business and uncertainties.

Thanks Father, He gave me realizations and never had let me down even in the midst of insanity. He always guides my thoughts and rule over me to straighten my path.

God Bless us all.

World go break but I won't go Freak

Monday morning again… So much lousy. Too tiring day. Thinking about the things I’ve been throughout today would be very tiring indeed. My mind is really in confusion and several things and easiness. Starting from standing up inside the bus the whole trip until we get into the long walk to MRT station. And when you get through that MRT first station, at the roadside before the entrance to it, you’ll regularly see hundreds of people merging on its way up the station. When you are really a weak person who can easily be dizzy and have a weak body, I told you, you’re not supposed to be there or else, you’ll be stamped by uncaring people that few only thinks that they should not hurt others. Four or five days a week, I have been losing air and power in mingling with different kind of people, forcing my way to the station. After surviving the near-death experience, I’m on my way to the train. It’s now time to run after time like I will be late but there’s nothing to worry about, I am not being paid as I am only an OJT and my boss will probably be late then. Then I will found myself waiting with others for the train to come. I learned not to mingle with man out there. Some of them are lascivious. I learned not to go in that side again so I prefer to be in with women. However, when the train come, it’s normal to see this woman dying to go inside the train, that’s why I having trouble with my bag left outside the train and luckily, after the pushing, and bumping and shouting, the train will suddenly be calm. Then the trip goes on.

Every morning, I eat my meal right and drink my vitamins, but most of the time, in order to save, I take vitamins every other day, just to keep my body healthy and ready to deal with the long stand, long walks, “sardines race”, morning shouts, long lines to fall in, and in summing it up all, everyday survival trip. This is how most of us are encountering every morning. And to think that I still have 3 weeks in doing these things, feels like I’m quitting. Thank God He never let me sick. And the conductor in the bus I rode this morning is none the other the conductor who is always giving me free ride. I got shy whenever I ride in their bus, I don’t want to be treat like that. But, maybe I could give a present to him, maybe a food or something as a sense of gratitude. Father let things happens for reasons.

As a human, so many things bug me. Just like... I went to a workshop-seminar in ACE IT Learning Solutions yesterday. It’s about 3-in-1 workshop in Adobe Fireworks, After Effects and Premiere. Before I get there, even though I was been there last Wednesday, I got lost because of riding a jeepney that will never go to where I should go. My goodness, another cause of my stupidity sometimes, I never ask question. But because of the caring of Father, a kind jeepney driver had let me get to my destination and refuse my fare. ACE was located in front of a security agency that is beside our church. I love the feeling whenever I look upon our churches. It feels that I am truly guided whenever I go. Father once again proves that He never let me lost my way and He is always guiding me wherever I am. I get to the seminar and enjoyed it so much except that I got headache in the closing and opening door of the room. But it is a really worthy seminar. Oh, what bugs me is I want to study these graphic tools but my pc can’t afford its requirements. I need a higher rig and but I don’t have money to buy it. I plan to assemble my dream rig but maybe, I could handle it when I got my job and earn just right. I hope Father will let me again. I thank Him very much, He always do my favor. Last Saturday, I had sold my laptop hard disk in a good price and it’s because Father had heard my prayer that I beg Him for me to have a good customer in the price I had made.

This morning, I met my friend again as usual in our office. Nothing special but one thing I realized today is that she was again in front of me, she, an innocent young lady who knows nothing about the real truth. Maybe she is not yet ready to see the most important truth. She is still looking at the worldly things in this world and she never believes me whatever I say about the truth I am talking about. I never had surrender; I am just looking for the right time. I know Father will be giving me a go signal if I needed to do something. Just like today, I never had known that I could lose my pin button remembrance in ACE in the Bus ride. .It’s very significant to me for attending that workshop for the first time. Maybe it was only His reminder to me that I needed to be doing something. And also, just to tell me that I could go back in there to get another. I knew, I really need to learn more about multimedia. It will be my tools in the near fight in the future and it was only Him who knows what is good for me. I knew a duty was laid on my shoulders. May Father bring me there to where He wants me to be. I have no doubts, wealth, health, foes, hungers, thirst, even death, will never hinder me if it was Christ and Father are here by my side. I knew they will never leave me. May I always follow Their will. May Father always bless me!

I could be Stressful, but Not in the Holy City

This morning, I'm kinda sad for the conductor in the bus had called me "tita" and before long someone told me that I look older than my age in the picture. Also I can't forget that many had called me "ate" and worst "tita" in the reality that they were older or the same as my age. And I cannot forget the time while I'm staring at a small-time jewelry shop in a supermarket, the vendor said, "Bili na po, panregalo nyo po sa anak nyo.." She was smiling by then. And I just got surprised within me and just become silence. I want to slap that vendor on the face, she's not an educated seller. Am I really look too old? Do I really wear bad? I'm really sad to know that I'm older looking than my age. I just hold on to the thought that maybe I'm too serious in life that's why I look more mature than my age. Anyway, in fact, there's so many young professional that look matured because they are not happy-go-lucky person and I'm happy, I'm one of them. But of course, it doesn't mean I shouldn't have time for myself. I'm not a very self-conscious girl unlike others who cannot live without looking at the mirror from time to time. I'm just a simple being who wears the simplicity of fashion.

Anyway, just this morning in my way to MRT station, there's so many thoughts that is running through my mind. Besides the headache I am feeling and the air I am trying to get in the midair due to the struggling crowd, I cannot stop thinking of things. I don't mean to right in this blog everyday but the thoughts that is running in my mind makes me so.

Maybe I look old but, now what? Well, I have a freedom to do everything I can. I could have a worry-free life. Yes.. you hear it right worry-free! Therefore, if I will walk that way, I wouldn't be stress as this. Then what shall I do to have a worry-free life? Simple. I will just come to work everyday to earn money, earn friends and buy things I want. Then go home again to rest, to eat, to play my favorite computer games, study Multimedia arts, my favorite activity. And when Thursday and Sunday comes, I'll just get into church for our congregation. Then I'll go home again, do the same thing again. And when the right time comes, I fell in love, I could have a family, be a mother to my children, be a loving wife to my husband. Then my life will be as simple as that, 'no worries'. Maybe you will say, I am insane because no one will get through life without worries. Yes, you're right. All of us encounter troubles everyday but being an INC member we are not worrying about what we will eat, we will drink, we will wear, because all of this will be provided by Father. Even the loving husband/wife is God's given gift. That's why we shouldn't worry about the necessity in life. Because even the birds in the plains are fed by Father, how much more His true people.

What I'm talking about here is the instance that I'm worrying things that are not required to do but could earn good points from Father. Wait. Did I say worry? No, I shouldn't too. If Father is beside me I shouldn't worry. Maybe I just misinterpret it to sadness, deep sorrow. I got sad whenever I think that I cannot do something about my friend who is not inside this church and she couldn't understand what I'm trying to tell her. I cry for the thoughts that many of my dear ones is not yet inside the church and living in the wrong way and serving the wrong gods. I cry for the thoughts that they will suffer hell even they innocently don't knew it.

Well, I could have forget it. I could have. Why didn't I should just remain silent and wait for the Judgment Day to come. Then we will be save and therefore on that day, my tears and worries will all be gone, I can totally forget about those hard-headed friends of mine that shall be suffering the hottest lava. And also, written, that He will cleanse and make our body all new again, then I'll become good-looking and healthy lady again ,whatever sickness strucked in me, they will just gone in nothingness. And I would totally forget about them because our mind on that day will be totally cleansed as what could we see i His glory. So why do I care for them if they won't believe me whatever I say?

But because Father is kind, He wants us to share the truth to others so they will be saved too. But the world is totally wicked that they wouldn't believe Father. They continue to do the things that makes them satisfy and will not do His will. They are so lazy to find the right way of serving God because they are following their own will with their wronged preachers.

Oh, I cry that some of my friends are still belong here. I pray to Father to enlighten them with His mercy. God bless my friends.

The True Fulfillments in Life

This morning I grab a free newspaper in the station. I don't usually do this, I am not interested with today's news. Usually there will be price hike, killings, kidnapping, treachery, cheating, corruption, etc. If not you will hear the showbiz talks about the pregnancy of young actresses, the broke up of former love teams, the new partner of this actor, they new vital stat of an actress. Is it okay to hear these news but it shouldn't be too much.

How about the terrible news? What do you feel when you hear it:
1. You were just an ordinary citizen who commutes everyday and you hear that the fare will increase again.
2. You are an ordinary citizen that is cooking everyday with the use of kerosene and woods. You hear the news that LPG's price will increase again, together with it are kerosene and other goods for cooking.
3. Every morning your only breakfast is pandesal and you rely to it for your whole day activity, then you will hear that the flour's price increase again. The small pandesal you were eating will be smaller to equate to its price Php1.00.
4. You're just an ordinary parent to your little grader and will be buying soon his school supplies. The illustration board that before is thick is now thinning. The plastic cover that is before last for years because of its thickness now only last for weeks because of its thinness.
5. You've given you're two small children Php 20.00 to buy a drop of vinegar,drop of oil, bit of ginger, piece of garlic, small piece of onion, enough to cook a serving of terrible-taste food. Then if the children are lucky enough, they could have Php1.00 as change, enough to buy a piece of candy that they needed to break in two pieces to be fair. But most of the time, a piece of small candy can lead to a sibling rivalry.
6. You're a regular commuter of MRT and yesterday you just heard the news of terrorist bomb attack inside MRT station.
7. You're a big time businessman having trips to many places then you heard the news that a famous businessman was kidnapped by syndicate yesterday.
8. You'll be running as Congressman next election and you heard that a political leader and his party was ambushed by its opponents.

So many blood-curdling stories. All people got affected. No one in his sanity will say that he lives happy in this world and will say that he is satisfied with what he is now possesing. There are always doubts, deep sorrows, frustrations, dissatisfaction and discontentment. This is the world today. You will be happy for sometimes but you will gone mad and sad for so long. You will feel the feelings of hopelessness. That's why other take suicidal. And their so idiot in doing those things. Why? Because they have no God. They just trust themselves. They will either just remember Father when they need something or if they don't need something and they were happy. This is what Father hates about universe, mostly to the people in our native religion.

The field has an abundant harvest this year.
Farmer 1: Let's thank San Isidro for his blessings!
Farmer 2: Yes! Let's celebrate a fiesta for San Isidro!

The field has no good harvest this year due to typhoons and floods.
Farmer 1: It was God's will, we can't do nothing.
Farmer 2: Yah... it was His.

Look at that! If it is blessing they will thank those unexisting gods but when it is curse, they will remember it's God's will! How terrible! This is one of the cause of Father's anger. They didn't remeber to thank the living and only one God, instead they are praising man-made gods that were made of woods and stones. This is one of the Bible's prophecy that those sinners will give praise to those human with animals beside them just like san Isidro with Carabao beside him, sculptured human that were made of wood or stone. Having eyes but cannot see. Having nose but cannot smell. Having lips but cannot speak. Is that your god? How could it save you? Remember the gold calf that the Israel nation created while Moises had gone to get the Ten Commandments? As a punishement to what they did, they were eaten by the craked land and they were buried alive because of God's anger.

This world is full of untidy. It is no longer safe to live here. You will take gun with you in order to be secured? Even a gun-hussler can be killed.
You will take security guards to guard your house at night? Even tightest security bank had robbed.
You will be using your intelligence to invent time machine to return back to the past where Garden of Eden still reachable and live there? Remember "The Time Machine"? Past is past and it could never be changed no matter how many times you repeat it.
You will be paying money for the salvation of your soul? Oh yeah? Holy City infrastructure is made up of gold and luxurious stones. It could never equate Father's righteous words.

What else do you want to do other than that?

Whatever it is, if it is just worldly things then it could not even reach tothe level that you can attain the life eternal.

We were taught not to look to the things that you can see because it can vanish. Instead, look at the things that cannot be seen. Because the one we cannot see last forever. What is it? It's the heavenly things. The Holy City, the Eternal Life. No one has ever dreamt of its real image eventhough we can visualize it if we read the Bible.

Yes, the Holy City, the Eternal Life. As His true people who belongs in His nation, this is our hope, this is our land. This world is not the place we were truly live, we're just boarders and we are on our journey to the salvation of our soul.

This is my inspiration in my daily living. I look at it with glee and my heart could jump for joy if I could bring my dear ones with me in there. I could never save them, I could just invite them to come and pray for them that may Father lead them to see the truth.

So many trials, so many sadness and heart-breaking stories. My friends would leave me, my dear ones could never support me but here, Father right by my side, even I am fighting alone, would be the strongest force in the earth and universe. No one could harm me. No one could rob my faith from me. No one could weaken me. No one could make me hopeless. Because everything I need is in Him. I know He will make me succeed.

May Father help me achieve the responsibilities He lay on my shoulders.

God bless us!

Sacrifice Everything for the sake of You

"If you want to keep someone, be sensitive on how you will react." This sentences still echoes in my ears and while I keep on repeating it inside my head, there is a drop of tears that is ready to fall in my eyes. Maybe I had hurt her so badly that I haven't stopped my feelings of anger. I want to say to her these: 

"I love you my friend, too much that I could sacrifice even this friendship for you just to understand someday that I am right and the things I am saying to you are true. I will never leave you and I will never let go unless you are the one who want to let go.. But if you will leave and we'll be separating ways... always remember the things I have told you before. That I love you and it's true, I never almost pulled you to go with me just because it's my want but I care for you. Remember:

"Acquaintance agree, Friends argue."

If you really care and love your friend then you should not always agree with what he is doing. Sometimes, you should say what is the right thing for him to know. And this is only to prove that you really, really care for him because you don't want him to be in danger.

--A quotable quote from Metal Gear Solid 3, told by Otacon to Snake while Snake was on his duty, who is sometimes aggressive and hard-headed in  following the safe rules. 

I understand your principle and beliefs but not all beliefs and principles are right. You should base them all in the Bible in order to check if you are living in the right way. Don't you say that your principle will be your principle until you die even it is wrong. Now I'm telling you and showing you the truth, what else are you looking for? World peace? It cannot be healed anymore my friend. Written in the Bible, the world has no more peace in the future, it is going nearer in its destruction and we're not supposed to be here. That's why I am telling you, we shall inherit the Holy City. I want you to be there also my dearest friend. I may not be your most important friend but in my friends in this worldm you are and I don't want you to suffer the curse that the Satan's people will suffer. I want you to save from fire. Time will come and you will surely understand me. Don't tell me you did, but actually you don't. May that time be sooner and never be late. Father bless you. I love you my dearest friend." 

"Greater love has no one than this, than to lay down, one's life for his friends." 

-John 15:13 

I am Not Fighting for Nothing, I Know

I don't know and I can't understand myself. Sometimes I just can't understand why I'm doing things. Things like pulling someone to hear our doctrines. By the way, when I invite my friends for the sake of having souls to be invited to listen I never force them to go with me, that's if, the said friend/friends are not so important to me. Why shall I waste my time and effort in pulling them out of that dreadful wrong-path-religion if they, themselves don't want to leave it. BUT, if he/she is a close friend of mine, ah... it's a different story. I am eager and always praying for them to see the truth and real path to the real God. I am really exerting effort and putting myself down in front of them. They will think I'm crazy. "Hey, this person is such crazy, she's very devoted to her religion." --Maybe this is what people I care for say to me. It is because they not yet understand that this is not just a belief I am fighting for, instead it is the truth that every living person should know because it could greatly affect their life. They don't understand how they are so important to me that I don't want them to suffer the great miserable that will come to their life. Why they won't try?

What do they want? The easiest way to serve God? To listen to the unrighteous preachers who preaches doctrines that are not in the Bible instead preach only the things that they think will fit their wants? Oh, how terrible! Then they don't follow God's will, they only follow themselves. That's why the world today had a terrible illness because it is human who had ignite Father's anger.

Anyway, it will really happen because it was written in Revelation, my favorite chapter.

Many people shout for peace but, as written in the Holy Scripture, they will ask for peace but destruction will come. There are many movies and films that show how they could see the world in the future. Many are truly frightened that the world will be destructed, that they wouldn't have home to live by anymore.

We, as an Iglesia Ni Cristo (Church of Christ) member are not afraid when the destruction of the world come, i.e., the Judgment Day. It is because we were taught that that day is the day of our Salvation. Our soul will now rest on that day. We will live in an everlasting eternal happy life. No more sadness, no more sorrows, no more hunger, no more thirst, but only happiness. It was written in the Bible. And Oh! I am very so much excited to get into my Father's kingdom and to see Lord Jesus in person and of course to eat fruits from the tree of life that bear different fruits each month, to swim in the river of life, for sure I will not drown in there , coz I dont know how to swim, to walk on the Holy City that floorings are made of gold, how wonderful life is, life that no one in this world had experience. And His kingdom are reserved only for His true people who will remain loyal until the end.

If only my dear friends whom I invited has faith on this, they would probably accept the invitation without second thought and will do their best to become one. And will remain His faithful sheep.

I'm telling it to them now, now while I'm strong enough to fight what is right. While I have feelings of pity. While I'm strong enough in my faith and while I am still living. I fight because I know Father is right here beside me and telling me that I am not fighting for nothing.

The Very Important thing in Life that affects us

(from Righteous Force blog in FS, written on Monday, September 17th, 2007)

Isn’t our religion is the one that affect our daily live, habits, principles and significance in life?

Do religion teach us how we should value life and most of all how we RIGHTEOUSLY serve our God?

People who don’t have religion is a

Moron

coz he did not know how to value the one who had created him and the universe. If you will say so that you value those things then DO IT! Remember, Faith without Action is DEAD!

Then if we have a religion, what we want to do is serve God  above all things.

Then now, Father will be please.

But would He be pleased if you only follow a part of His words and not thoroughly serve/follow Him?

Like, when He ask you to go to church every congregation day, you will go, you listen but after that, when you go home, you had forgot what the lesson is all about, you didn’t do what He wants in your daily lives, you continue to do bad things.

There are many religions nowadays that teaches what they only please, inventing doctrines that they could only do because they say ‘it would be hard to follow this one, erase that one’ oh, so bloodcurdling! How dare them changing God’s word? Didn’t they know Rev. 22:18 -19? That whoever will change or pick out any words from the Bible would be CURSE?

My friends, relatives, love ones— I don’t want anyone of you to suffer the wrath of Father coz it’s very near to come…. The Judgement Day is about to come and there is still time to change. Don’t be fool by those unhearted religions who teach only for what they want….  Especially the oldest religion of this race…. It will not bring you to salvation, instead they will make yours soul suffer….

My friends—– There is only ONE (1), TRUE Religion, TRUE church

“Idinadalangin ko sila: hindi ang sanlibutan ang idinadalangin ko, kundi yaong mga sa akin ay ibinigay mo; sapagkat sila’y iyo: At ang lahat ng mga bagay ay iyo, at ang mga iyo ay akin: at ako’y lumuluwalhati sa kanila. At wala na ako sa sanlibutan , at ang mga ito ay nasa sanlibutan, at ako’y paririyan sa iyo. Amang Banal, ingatan mo sila sa iyong pangalan yaong mga ibinigay mo sa akin, upang sila’y maging isa, na gaya naman natin.” –Juan 17:9-11

  —- Hindi sanlibutan ang bayan ng Ama, ito ay ibinukod mula sa sanlibutan at ito ang Iglesia Ni Cristo ayon sa napakaraming pagpapatunay sa Biblia, pangunahin na ang Roma 16:16 at Gawa 20:28.

  My friends, if you have questions regarding this matters, don’t ever ever hesitate to ask me…

I love you my friends that’s why I want you to attain salvation of your soul.

Mahirap na ang buhay sa mundo mga mahal ko, ‘wag nyong hayaang pati sa Kaarawan ng Kapootan ng Ama ay maghirap tayo at madamay sa sumpa nitong mundo.

Dahil tunay na ang mundong ito ay isinumpa..  at isang relihiyon lamang ang tumatayong  matatag sa gitna ng sumpang ito, ang iglesia Niya at nais ng Panginoong Jesus na makasama Niya tayo sa mga maliligtas pagdating ng Araw….

In my dreams, my devotion still haunts me..

Yesterday, I was a bit weak and sad because my friend doesn't want to talk about the thing adn last favor I want her to do--- to attend our congregation even once. She doesn't know that I want to do it for her and not for myself. I am just weakened by the thought that she wouldn't attain salvation. 'Cause I love her so much and I want her also to feel the real happiness I feel inside the Church.  I want to show her the things that strenghten my spirit. But she refuse my invitation. I made it clear to her that I am not forcing her to become one of us. I just want her to try and come with me, observe, compare and at the end the decision was hers. As simple as that.. but she won't believe. I want to ask her: Who am I to you? Am I just an ordinary friend that can ask a 'hard' favor for you?

What is hard by then? Is it that she will be wearing a skirt? Because she hates to wear it. She only wear it when it is really needed, like school presentations. And its important to her to comply, even she hates it. But what's the different? Is wearing skirt made her sick? Do school regulation more important than a friend's favor? Or am I just an ordinary friend so she cannot sacrifice 'hard-thing-for-her' like that? Oh... I cry...

When we're on our bus on our way home before we separate ways in going home, she noticed that I am sad lately and got happy at times, then got sad again, she asked me if I have "manic depression". (if you don't know the term, you could read it here:

 http://www.rcpsych.ac.uk/mentalhealthinfo/problems/bipolarmanicdepression/bipolardisorder.aspx

She told me she want to heal me but not that time because she said she has not yet have the capacity to do that. I told her: "You can. You can heal me." She don't believe. But at that time I want to say: "...just do my favor and you can help me..." and "You want me to be happy? Please do my favor... my dear friend.." . But I never did because I want her to know it by herself, she's an aspirant psychologist after all and she's not blind and definitely not stupid to know it. 

I had told her that that is my last favor before we separate ways after graduation. I never say I want something in return to all the favors I did for her but I just want to say, I did mine, I knew they weren't enough, but I'm just asking my last favor. 

Every night it haunts me in my dreams. Last Wednesday evening, I got a dream about us and never told her about it. The dream is about: She is watching tv and very happy that time on what she is watching while I'm doing something in my pc and restlessly lay my head on her right shoulder and say gloomily, "...will you please pay me attention?.." She said in return, "You aren't beautiful...", with a mocking sign in lips. My head weakly fell down on her lap but she never catch it, instead, she continues watching what she enjoyed well.

This night, I dreamt about us again. It was in an old days. The scene was glamorously sofia in color. We enjoy playing in the field.. Spending all days laughing and playing. And the night comes and she want to go home. I told her, why not stay for a while. She sat on the sala of the old house together with my sister. I get inside of the house to get something for her to bring home but when I return back into the sala, she's gone without bading me good bye.

Is that our friendship got to be?

I love her more than a friend... a dearest friend. Dearest friend to me. I want her to understand that I'm doing all of this... for her. 

  

What I aspire is immaterial at all...

Last Thursday night, I just been in the church somewhere in Metro Manila East. I was waiting my bus ride to home while handling my newly bought Canon printer that I'm happy that I've discounted it's 25% price even without warranty. I knew it would run well and I knew Father always guide my decisions. Then I was in front of a Chevrolet store that was closed at that time. I saw the cars, saw the luxury of life. I had told my self, truthfully, I dreamt to have a car. But if I were asked between luxury and friends, I don't need that.. what more important to me is to save my friends and loveones from fire. This is my greatest dream.

This past few days I can always feel that He is always with me. He always hear my prayers. I have so many prayers, most have been answered, some are still in His hands.

One of this is what I had prayed inside the church. I beg Him and Jesus to enlighten the sleeping mind of my dearest friend. I beg them to please, please make my dear friend know the truth, know Him as the real God and someday become one of His faithful worshiper. I want this friend of mine to be also belong in the true Church like what the congregation yesterday night taught and remind us. That there is only one true religion that will inherit the Holy Land, the Eternal Life. That's why people needed to be belong in the true religion in order to be saved when the Judgment day come. This one true religion has been purchased by Christ's blood according to the many scriptures in the Bible. That's why this is the only Church that has been proven to be true Church of Christ with its teachings that is purely-written in the Bible and by numerous prophecies in the Bible that strengthen the truth that this is the Church of Christ that arose in the Far East because the former church of Christ which is Israel, has been condemned by God because of their sin.

And I am always praying.. to be like my other brethren in INC that become blessed when they had succesfuly converted their loveones with the help of Father. I truly hope Father will grant my wish.

I really love my friend so much that I don't like her to suffer in the judgment day.

I always think, what matters? When I'm in that Holy City, I will no longer bear tears and sadness. Only happiness. I will never remember my friend that she is suffering that time.

But because I want to follow Father as He taught us to become kind-hearted and 'save them from fire', I only follows and while I'm still have the feeling of love and pity, I will risk my life in showing and telling them the truth. May Father help me.

God Bless me and my loveones.