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Saturday, March 28, 2009

Only the 'Chosen One' have the real Wisdom

Hunger for honor. It’s been 8 years. I told myself I don’t care anymore. But everytime the month of March came, this March of agony syndrome attack my inner thoughts of the day when I’m still in the place who is achieving plenty of praises and honor from different people.  It might be very difficult to accept that after receiving plenty of awards, time will come that you are no longer receiving any.

Maybe, I had experienced the experiences of different kinds of students.

I had experienced to be praised.

I had experienced to be elevated when someone else is very proud because of me.

I had experienced to be the “talk of the town”.

I had experienced to be famous and be loved.

I had experienced to be calm when the report card is prepared.

I had experienced to become a respectful leader.

I had experienced not to let my classmates copy on my work.

I had experienced to teach others for the subject they don’t know.

I had experienced to earn honors and awards.

On the other side, I had experienced to be envied because of my honor.

I had experienced to be invited by someone in a brawl to lose my dignity.

I had experienced to be dumped.

I had experienced to be anxious when the report cards are ahead.

I had experienced to be disrespected as a leader.

I had experienced to copy to other’s paper during exam and had cursed myself from doing it.

I had experienced to ask my other classmate with simple question in a Math subject.

I had experienced to become stupid in front of geniuses.

I had experienced to earn nothing.

 

I had experienced them in my entire life as a student.  Some of them made me sick to realize that I got this changed. I could never been an inborn genius. I am only been lended by a little talent.  But one thing is for sure. This talent had never been removed from me like my belief before. My thinking got more matured as the years past by and probably this challenges and failures are ingredients to my true success. These experiences changed my life a lot and it made me realized that these experiences made me stronger than before.  My destiny is in my hands that’s why I should go on.

             Let me tell you. I am not wondering for years that my every close friend becomes either academic achiever, dean’s lister or cum laude. I may state a probability that I become a lucky charm to them. J  They earned it not only because they were intelligent but my Father let them to be. Blessings could be shared and it flows. I always have blessings even in simple ways of my life, it never become scarce to me; it is always abundant from the moment I wake up until I sleep at night. 24/7, I am always been blessed. So if ever I did not achieve my wants today after I graduated in college, I am sure Father will be giving me what I deserve and will give me the real triumph I am longing for.  

 And now I speak as a normal person, “I’ll be a great tensai someday.”  I may not have the intelligence of the earth but the wisdom of the Father is running through my veins and living in my heart and mind.

The Bible speak that the intelligence of man shall bring him to easier and progressive life, yet it will not bring him to salvation of his soul. Useless the intelligence is if we will not be having true wisdom. We could never be saved by intelligence and other earthly things.

                I tell you, true religion matters as they could be in your daily living, your principles and beliefs are the things that greatly affect how you live life. You can never know that you are doing the wrong thing until the day that you found out that you were cursing yourself from doing that thing and your remorse will no longer be accepted.

                The ‘chosen one’ in the Old Testament is the Israel nation or Bayang Israel that were freed from the slavery in Egypt, given to them was the Promised Land.  But in all the numerous miracles, outstanding kindness and greatest love that Father gave them, they still fight against Father and gone back to their old ways. What happened to them? They were cursed. That’s why Israel, until now, still have no peace. War is in every corner of that nation.

So is that the end of Father’s love? No. That’s why, as the prophecy in the Bible says, Father had called the Last messenger in the Far East or Malayong Silangan,  that is, the Philippines, to arise Iglesia Ni Cristo, to let  His sons and daughters from the Far east to praise His name. This is what most people outside the church cannot accept. They couldn’t accept that this religion is the true church, eventhough this is justified by many prophecies in the Bible.

 So why should we get envy to those people who has the greatest intelligence in the world if the wisdom of the Lord which is the most important of all is out of their mind. They were just a moron person in front of Father. If they don’t know the truth and they couldn’t accept it, then they are just foolish people who like salvation of soul but never want to work for Father’s wants.

 

Friday, March 20, 2009

March of Agony

March comes again..
Month of summer. Month that out goers are waiting for.
Month of fire prevention. Many homes and industries suffers from burn destruction.
Month of recognition & graduation day. Most honor and graduating students are waiting for.

March. How many March has come into my life? This year it is the 14th time I'll be hugging this month, whether I like it or not. For my first 6 March, I could say they were a big success for me eventhough my only merit is being a first honors student, aside from winning the 4th place feature writing contest that my adviser is one of the judges, nothing else. My elementary life never become that easy and maintaining my first honors become my priority. I never had planned it. I could still remember how my grade one teacher had asked me to call my mama only to tell her that I'm the first honor in the class. Grade one, it was my first time to get in school and since I never had enrolled in kinder or nursery, just my mama who had taught me how to read and write, I was placed in section B because section A is only for those who had finished kinder. I have no care for those things that time. I'm just happy being a gradeschool student with my first pad paper and thick black pencil that my mama got in her store for me. I'm with my daddy when I enrolled in grade one. Like my mama told me, I should be attentive and active in class. That's why in my first day of the class, I raised my hand when our teacher had asked a volunteer from us to introduce ourself. I did the first move that time. I wonder, I'm not usually like that today. After having myself introduced, a seatmate of mine had introduce herself to me, and she become one of my school "best friend".
For months, I become recognized in the school. That's why a section A teacher had asked me to enroll to her class next school year, which I did but she failed me just to save the youngest son of her co-teacher that is also a first honor and she don't want me to compete with him.
In grade three, the first honors of this student ended when i "beat" him up, as what my teacher says. After that, he never had continued his study as his father says he was still young for school. Grade four, another life in me begins when I met the honor students of other sections. Challenges become rigid and I'm doing all the possible and legal ways to achieve honor. I don't know how I find honors so tasty after I had tasted it in my first grade.
Years after years, I become first honors in my elementary life. Become a valedictorian is one of my dream that time. I saw the other valedictorians who were stepping up on the stage and being necklaced with different gold medals. Medals. I'm hunger for it. Honors. It makes me happy. I achieve it.
After elementary graduation, I'm still wondering. Do I really deserve this honor? Do I really deserve it? (Well,there's so many people who is achieving what they don't deserve.)
I could be one of the previous valedictorians who graduated in our school without giving the school a bunch of awards in different competitions, quiz bee, math competition, poster making contest, journalism, I lose them all. I never had won. I got ashame. Could I call myself a respectful valedictorian?
Whatever could be the reason Father gave me what I had prayed for and He thinks I deserve it. I'm not an inborn genius. Father had just lend me a little skill.
My high school life changed my world. It was a nightmare to belong in the class where your classmates are all valedictorian, salutatorian and honor students. Competition are tighter. We have all hunger for good grades. And this environment makes me insane. I always come home tired and sleepy. It's hard to study like this, i shouldn't want to get 85/100 or I'll be the dorkest student in the class. Minimum goal shall be 90/100.
I never achieve this. It was my greatest failure. I failed to be even in top ten percent. I'm 4th to the last in rank. My nightmares. I cried. I broke my scholarship just like my other classmates who had lose their's and find their own life in other school.
They were ended up.

I come to think: "How it should be if I didn't enrolled in that private school with good standard and study in public, could I still become honor student?"

Well, I'm a foolish one. Maybe it should really happen and it was my destiny. I should be thankful that I had studied in a good-standard school. I learned many things that other students didn't learned. And met people, teachers and friends who are memorable.

But I never can stop to think of comparing myself with others. One of my friend had lose and regain her scholarship again and reunite with section one because she become an academic achiever. I'm still on top 3 in my second year but sad to tell, I never had achieve the grade for an academic achiever.

I just continue my fight until I reach 4th year. I always longing to become an academic achiever. But in my sorrowful distress, my close friends achieve what I am longing to achieve. Maybe it's really not for me. I should be thankful for the moments when: 

My English teacher had asked me:"What happened to you?" When I got 85/100 in English. I feel like tearing the paper apart that time in my shame. That's because I'm the most active participants in English recitations in our class that time and I'm expected to be the highest in English.

My first&fourth year classmate had asked me: "Ba't ganyan grade mo?" When I got a low but not failing grade in our summative. Someone said "Yabang naman neto..". He said, "Hindi, kasi matalino siya.." He knows me, and I understand him. He just like me when we are first year always answering in recitation in a "trying-hard" manner. He's salutatorian and in my same fate.

I become sad at first when I hear things of expectation but then will feel happy to realize that they were expecting something from me. It means that I'm worthy. I shouldn't be sad but get striving harder.

Like what echoes in my ear, the teachings of my beloved 2nd year English teacher, "Don't compare yourself with others. You have different qualities from others."
Yes, I may not be an inborn genius. But I have the luckiest fate ever had. My Father must have the right to take away what He had lend me. I get down on my knees but He never leaves me. He always answer my prayers and just give me the things I need. I bow on His greatness. I may be down whenever I saw my close friend achieve things I want to have. A friend of mine in my grade 3 class in our public school is not an honor student but since she transferred in her 4th grade to the private school where I studied HS, she become academic achiever in 4th year. Yeah, all of my close friends, since high school until college, they got the academic achievements and I'm very happy for them. School quality really matters, also the inborn talents. 

Every March, i'm in my sorrowful distress. I cried in agony. I am longing for honor.

But then come to think. Do all honor students succeed? No. Do all genius become invulnerable? No. Do honors always make you reputable? No. Do earthly intelligence has a great thing to do with the riches in heaven? of course NO. To inherit the land of Father, you don't need to become intelligent in earthly things. You should have the wisdom of His words, that is, the Truth. You should know the truth of His words.... And I'm lucky, I possess it. We, Iglesia Ni Cristo possess that.
 
Now, another March had come, shall I live in agony again? 
Course, No. I'm Iglesia Ni Cristo and I'm one of the most very luckiest person in the world.


'Cause really, they were more special things that Father had prepared for me. Even in this world while the end is not yet coming. I know He prepared a very special gift. I am always praying to Father that may I have achieve the 'thing' for me in the right time.


In my next article, I'll be telling the world why I'm one of the most luckiest persons who is now living on earth. More intelligent than the most genius, richer than the richest, stronger than the most powerful. I'm one of those, "chosen one".




Wednesday, March 11, 2009

This world Isn't my Home

"Earth hour may basbas". This was the title of a column written by Dona Pazzibugan in an Inquirer newspaper Libre, issued Tuesday, March 10, 2009. The news said that Manila Archibishop Gaudencio Cardinal Rosales is asking all the Roman Catholic in the Philippines to cooperate to the "Earth Hour", a wordlwide campaign to stop global warming, by turning off all the lights in the night of March 28 from 8:30 to 9:30. In the last sentence of the article, we could read:

"Our only home is this planet," anang cardinal.

There are only two kinds of reaction for this sentence.

There are two kinds of people who will react.

One will say: "Yes, he's right. This is our only home so we should take good care of it."

And another person who knows the truth of Father in heaven will say: "Definitely not for me. This world isn't my home. I'm only in a journey. My true home is up there in heaven."

And that person is the highly-intellectual being in the eyes of the Lord. And the former will be the moron. Innocence will not fit it.

This is the truth that only those people who believes in Father's promises that are written in the Bible knows that this earth is not their home. This is what we Iglesia Ni Cristo holds on and the reason why we are standing still. We're not a citizen of this world. We're like foreigners. We're only in a journey. Our real home is God's Kingdom. To be there, we should obey His words and commands. To those who can finish his race, the Holy City and Eternal Life will be given to him.

Hindi ito ang aking bayan
Ako'y naglalakbay lamang
Sa bayan kong paroroonan
May bagong langit at lupa

I love this hymn. This is one of our congregation hymn that will fit this topic.

Back to the cardinal's quote, noticed that he says not only "home" but "only home". It seems that they really believe (and it's true, good they know.. haha) that for them this earth is their only home.

So how do you differentiate God's real people from the other people?
I hope you now knew it.

Friday, March 6, 2009

Help is Provided even Before you Asked for It

Help is always there before we asked, but we often find hard time in finding it. What could be the cause?

I was a fourth year BSIT student, 1st semester. It was my first time to take a removal exam to pass my programming subject, java. I am really not good in programming but I could learn if our teacher is good in teaching us the subject, even it is the hardest subject. But he's not good, he's not considerate and not just, and he's but an unfair instructor who just guessed our grades in Java. Whatever it is, I still studied and reviewed for the removal exam and of course more prayers I had made before the removal exam.
I maybe have been late for the removal exam. One hour before the end time of exam. I came in the room with several students like me is starting their exam. I saw also saw there Nosliw. I got surprised that he too is getting the removal in the fact that he was good in programming. So the instructor had asked me to go get computer for me to use. I chose one and sat on it. Then he gave me the test paper and I pray like I usually do before starting to do the machine exams. I knew some but I forgot most of the parts I had memorized and studied last night. Oh my!! I really don't know what to do.. I'm not really good in this field. This time, I'm so perplexed, of course, in this exam, I'll get either passed or failed. I know and I believe, Father is right by my side. But I just had said in the inner thoughts of my mind, "Father, where are you? You said you'll be helping me... (Ama, san ka na po? Sabi mo po, tutulungan mo po ako?) ". I almost cry that time that I couldn't pass the exam... I'm in a the state of sadness and perplexity, but still have the hope that my Father will be helping me.

Then... I just had realized, at the edge of the eclipse's browser side, I just saw a lately created project which I never had paid attention since I open the pc. And out of curiousity, I opened it, run it and yes! It was the same machine problem I am making. And they were all correct! And it's right there even before I had open the PC, I never had noticed but later on show onto me.

I never had cheated. I accidentaly found it right there. And I never known that the PC that I chose has a ready-made answers.

And most of all, Father gave it for me and I think ,I deserved it. He gave me the help even before I asked for it. I only haven't found it. Father is very kind, He never let me down, He always hear my prayers. He even gave me the "all-right answers for the exam to pass onto my unfair teacher who didn't consider the things we had done in his class. Another justification that the instructor is not considerate, is that he gave Nosliw a 2.5 in grade in the fact that it is supposed to be 3.0 because taking removal exam will give the student an either 3.00 (passed) or 5.00 (failed) grade. It is unfair that the student will be given 2.5 consideration just because they were scholar and their scholarship will be remove if they got 3.00. How about those non scholar student like me? Why I couldn't avail the same privilege? Is that how the education should run in this world? They're unfair!

But I should never been jealous. I have Father right me and they have not. They, people of injustice. Thanks that I have the God of justice. He's so kind that even I doubt a little He gave me what I asked for. And it served as a lesson:

"Help is provided even before you asked for it, but you will find it in the right time."

So, we shouldn't have even small doubt. We should have our full trust to the Lord that He will help us. We prayed, so we shouldn't doubt His power. Everything impossible is possible with my Father. I love Him so much. He never makes me fall. He grabs my hand and gave me full of hope.

Tuesday, March 3, 2009

When Someone Fight Against Father's Truth

I was a grade 5 student then and I could never forget the time that my teacher had unwarily criticize Iglesia Ni Cristo in front of my face.

We are together in the room doing a classroom project that time. He told me: "Iglesia Ni Cristo's ministers and maytungkulin gain more money from its members.."

At my young age, I knew how to "fight" this mocking sentences.. I said, "No Sir, my mother is a treasurer, my father is diakono, my sister is secretary and I am a PNK choir member, but we didn't gain any money.. we are doing our obligations to Father without payment."
He said: "Oh, how kind...", with a mocking laugh.

"You said, one cannot attain salvation if he will not be baptized. How could the young children of yours will be saved if they aren't in for baptism, as you said you should be at least 18 to be baptized. ", he asked, trying me.
I answered, "That's why we have PNK or Pagsamba ng Kabataan (children's congregation)."
"And who is teaching in there?", he asked again.
"Guro or sometimes Manggagawa.",I answered.
"Manggagawa of what? Shoes? Let him repair this shoes of mine, it needed to be repaired..(Manggagawa ng ano? Sapatos? Pagawa mo nga itong sapatos ko, sira na.)"
I just smiled and said "No..(Hindi po.)"

I have told him many things about Iglesia NI Cristo but he's just unconvincingly smile like mockingly shake his head as he said "..bata ka pa talaga.." while putting a carboard on his shelf.

Later that afternoon, I gave him a Pasugo that I got from my Tita's house. I told him to read it. He get it, smiled and just put it in the same shelf he had put his cardboard.

About weeks later, there are three issues that surrounds and imprisoned this said teacher of mine. First one, he himself is telling us about the fraudulence that he had gained from his former students. It was when he was outside his room doing his lesson plan, he saw his former male student who is drunk and waving on the plants at the gate. He then went to that boy and scold him in destroying the plants. The boy went out and he then went back to his work. After a moment, he saw that this boy had some drunk boys with him, having stones at hand. He then get ready his metal tube inside his desk. But while the boys are getting closer, he started to take distance and after a while the boys threw stones at him, he run up to the gate that made his feet sore and he gets a cramp, until the time he is telling that to us..

Second bad fate..
He was accused by his former female student that he had touched her private part. But he justify to us that he didn't did that because he has a long distance from her when they met in an alley. His case is upon court hearing that time.

Third one, the worst one.
A female student of him spread the shameful news about his masturbation inside the room while his room's windows and door are closed. According to her student that served as the witness, "It was true!" with angered face when she was in the "hot seat" talking to them.

Then I just realized that time that they were just curses to what he did the last time he talked to me. It was only Father's way to prove that those who fight against His truth will suffer curse and disaster. Maybe it happened only to make him realize that he had done something wrong and that's it.

My former classmate also had suffered bad fate after he had criticize the teachings of our church about "Paghahandog" ,(Offerings), that we don't need expensive, magnificent temples to pray in." I told him that we did it because for the praise of Father so that He will be glad and it's in the Bible. I explain that, if the mayor or president will be having a beautiful house to dwell in, how much more for God. I know it was only what his parents are saying and it was just inculcated in his mind that's why he is blurting it out. But I thought that this event was the cause of his unluckily shortage in education budget. He work until now and haven't finish college.

That's why I never wants my friend to become one of these people who suffer misfortune because of their being "unbelievers" of the truth we are feeding in their mind. For they don't want to open their mind to see what the Bible wants them to see. I don't want them to suffer. This time I realized, it was a prayer to Father: "Please Father, don't get angry to these people, they never knew what they are doing and saying."

However.. may His will reign. He knows who to teach lessons. But this is what I remind to those people who are hard-headed in accepting the truth, beware, my Father is punishing those who "bump" His holy Church. But give blessings to those who glorify Him and believing in His truth.